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(no subject)	[Nov. 2nd, 2009\|10:43 pm]
Hello, LJ world! Who's still here?
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(no subject)	[May. 4th, 2007\|01:34 pm]
i don't know. on wednesday i finally got what i've been wanting for the past 4 months. it was perfect and just the way i had imagined in my head, almost magical and so surreal. it's the excitement of the first kiss, with someone you've liked for longer than you can remember. yet....i don't know. what if i'm really just about the chase. i don't know. i had almost given up too, that our countless no physical contact "dates" would never evolve to anything more. no more thinking. meh. woke up this morning still drunk. and either i always get lucky or i'm just naturally good at beer pong.
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(no subject)	[Apr. 24th, 2007\|12:17 am]
i want to cut off my face. damn allergies, i am completely useless. eyes, nose, throat...all they do is itch. hell week this week. so much to do. i want to quit school.
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(no subject)	[Apr. 5th, 2007\|08:03 pm]
Hmm, I'm toying with the idea of veganism. Just a thought, a new challenge.
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(no subject)	[Mar. 31st, 2007\|03:18 pm]
This is what I'm doing this summer! http://www.mossbay.net/employment/index.asp
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(no subject)	[Mar. 4th, 2007\|06:16 pm]
i think there's a point where list-making and goal-setting becomes pointless, where the body is more powerful than the mind. my physical cravings couldn't be stopped by my brain. i am extremely upset at myself for my lack of self discipline and will power this weekend. i over exercised, which lead to being completely exhausted rest of the day, watched 2 chick flicks instead of practicing yesterday, and sinfully devoured two donut holes and cookies today. so much for the "no more stress eating" sign staring at me right now. i want something to change. i'm thinking a haircut. with lots of hair chopped off. i'm so lazy, it's to the point where i'd rather sit here extremely uncomfortable with my legs crossed than going across the hall to pee. so much negative energy coming from me right now.
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[Mar. 1st, 2007|01:32 pm]

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inspired

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At the gym this morning I saw the most amazing set of abs. This woman was wearing spandex capris and a sports bra, flaunting her perfect 6 pack no flabs and oh, my, god, it was beautiful. It was better than those pictures in fitness magazines that people claim are "airbrushed". She was the real deal.

Wow. Just, wow.

I practiced bright and early, did homework, and skipped music history to go to the gym. I had no rules for myself about skipping class, so it's all good.

Damn, those abs...

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crush.

[Feb. 27th, 2007|09:11 pm]

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So, it's about that older boy I'm obsessed about again. It's crazy how talking to him can just elevate my mood a millilon times. He makes me want to be a better person. He makes me want to quit playing the field. And he most definitely takes up most of the thinking capacity in my little brain. We've got a 4th date coming up. And he hasn't even touched me at all, not even a hug. This is all so...different...it's going well I guess. Slowly, but almost surely.

I went on an ice lugeing trip last weekend in Michigan. On our way back we lost control of the car on a freeway and hit the jersey barrier, and had to stand for 30 minutes in an Indiana freeway to wait for the tow truck. It was miserable. And a reminder of how crazy, precious, and unpredictable life is.

Deactivated facebook.
Uninstalled AIM.
And the gym is now a reward for having practiced and finished my homework.

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eternal slumber

[Feb. 26th, 2007|11:37 am]

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